Here I Am

Chapter I

Here I am

Sitting in the sun

Thinking of all the things

I’ve said and I’ve done

Yes, there was Barbara

From across the street

One of the nicest

You could hope to meet

My Mom didn’t like her

Which made her cry

And why she didn’t like her

I can’t figure why

“Honor they Father and Mother”

Is what you’re supposed to do

But how can you honor some one

When a case like this is true

Yet my parents did help me

In many ways

And I will appreciate it

Til the end of my days

They gave me my life

A life I can love

For which I thank the stars at night

And the days of sunshine above

So here I am

Sitting in the sun

Thinking of all the things

I’ve said and I’ve done

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Chapter II

Age Six

When I was age six

And in the country

An older boy exposed himself

Right in front of me

It was very scary

And I didn’t know what to do

And you hear all the time it’s up to the girl

So, at six years old, I felt I was through

I later had a therapist

Whom I asked why I do what I do

She said because I want to

Which did nothing but make me feel blue

Meanwhile I had forgotten

What happened at age six

But in the back of my mind it stood

And I knew that I was no good

This incident happened at day camp

Which I remember at age 83

The whole thing now seems stupid

But it changed me permanently

I never trusted boys

And later it was men

But they can have their struggles too

So, I’ll try to start over and not be blue

So, I will start over at

Age 83 and above

And hopefully find

Someone to love

Next month I will be

Age 84

And I am searching

For someone to adore

How do I spend my time

I paint and I write

And I want to be with a friend

And it all feels just right

So, I will stop here

My book comes to an end

But I’ll still go on searching

To find a good friend

And I will tell you

The joy I’ll have to the end

To lie in the arms

Of a loving friend